I Am Attracted To You

Written by Moon Temple on January 2, 2013
Arranged by Kcirred Reswob on January 13, 2013
Published in Issue 005

I am attracted to you. 

(in theory)

Cry in my bed.

(for no distinct reason) 

Can I lay on the floor?

 

For several hours?

(feeling nothing)

 

and then stand up. 

 

And look out my bedroom window? 

 

and feel slightly guilty. 

 

For feeling nothing? 

 

Can I look at pictures?

 

Of my ex boyfriend?

 

And?

 

Try to remember. 

 

What it feels like?

 

To feel something. 

 

Something explosive?

 

Can I look at a pretty girl?

 

That gets more attention? 

 

From people, I feel it is important.

(to receive attention)

 

From?

(and feel vaguely jealous)

and then? 

 

Feel slightly guilty.

And disgusted with myself.

 

Because.

The only thing I seem to be able to feel 

is vague. 

 

(Jealousy)

 

Cry in my bed.

For no distinct reason.

 

Can I chat with older men?

 

In other countries.

 

On gmail chat?

 

And get naked on webcam

and feel nothing 

 

Cry in my bed.

For no distinct reason.

 

Imagine arms… 

 

Around me?

 

Hug people I am attracted to

 

In theory?

Can you convince me? 

 

To feel for you? 

 

Explosively.

 

I am attracted to you.

(in theory) 

 

Can I pick at myself? 

 

In a bathroom?

 

At a party.

 

And?

 

Feel terrified.

Of everyone.

 

But you can.

 

You hold me! 

In the dark! 

 

While it is raining?

 

Cry in my bed! 

(for no distinct reason)

 

Can you get angry and yell at me?!

 

For?

 

Talking to an older man

in another country

…on gmail chat.

 

And?

 

Getting naked.

(on webcam) 

 

And? 

 

Feeling nothing.

Can you ask me to feel something?

 

For you?

 

Can I feel something for you?

 

Can I feel something for you?

 

Can I have your permission?

 

I am attracted to you.

(in theory)